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Monday, August 23, 2010

Banjis horoscope......

Cancer Strength Keywords:

- Loyalty
- Dependable
- Caring
- Adaptable
- Responsive

Cancer Weakness Keywords:

- Moody
- Clingy
- Self-pitying
- Oversensitive
- Self-absorbed

Cancer and Independence:

Cancer is the astrology sign that is packed full of contradictions so when it comes to independence, they possibly can or can not be independent. On one side, they have the perseverance and drive to do what needs to be done, they are self-sufficient and do not need to depend on other people for the material and physical things in life. On the other hand, they depend on people for emotional support and encouragement. A Cancer that is not fully self-actualized will need the constant support of others and will not be very independent but the Cancer that is 'evolved' and has properly harnessed their emotional issues will be wildly successful as an independent human being. They crave attention and comfort from other people and they are happiest when they have a small, close knit group of friends or family.
Cancer and Friendship:
Cancer is extremely loyal to those who appreciate and support them, they are the nurturer of the zodiac and will protect and cherish the person for a long time. One of the greatest things about Cancer is their ability to make others feel good about themselves and loved. This is because instead of doing this for themselves, they project this onto other people. This is a positive cycle because in making others feel nurtured, wanted and loved, they in return feel good for making someone feel good. Other people can lean on and depend on cancer, they will listen to people's problems and help them however they will rarely express their own deep feelings to anyone. People who want to share deep emotional thoughts and opinions with a Cancer might feel that the scales are tipped on one side for cancer will rarely reveal it's true deep feelings. A friend of Cancer is usually a lifelong devoted friend that can be trusted.

Cancer and Business:

Once cancer resolved their emotional issues such as shyness and insecurity, the powerful character will shine though, there is practically nothing they can't do. They have incredible perseverance and will stand up for what they believe in. With their strong intuition, sensitivity, powers of observation and intelligence, they will have great success in anything they undertake. They are excellent business people and investors because of their intuitive and psychic ability and their creative forward thinking mind, they are able to predict future trends. They attract wealth very well and know where to invest. Money and financial well being is very important to Cancer and this can help their drive in business. They need financial security and if they allow themselves to properly focus their energy and do not allow their emotions to over take them, they are more then capable of obtaining their financial goals and being incredibly successful business people.

Cancer Temperament:

They are complex, fragile, unpredictable and temperamental and need constant support and encouragement, more then any other astrology signs, Cancer needs to be needed. Even when all needs are satisfied, they can be irritable and cranky. They have an uneasy, delicate temperament. The contradictory nature of Cancer gives their temperament the wild mood swings and possible temper tantrums. They are easily offended and will sulk and wallow in self pity for a long time when they get hurt.

Cancer Deep Inside:

It is difficult for cancer to open up and have a close emotionally fulfilled relationship with someone because they are so closed off emotionally and physically to the world. This is driven by their fear of trust, Cancer has a difficult time trusting people. This causes built up anger and resentment inside, the contradictory nature really takes a toll on them and they can have a negative outlook on life, thinking that life is just too hard and miserable. This is unfortunate because when good experiences are to be had, they are skeptical of people and their surroundings and they experience tunnel vision due to their depressed outlook and they miss the nice things and happy experiences in life that make it worth living. In addition to lack of trust for people, Cancer is deeply sensitive and easily hurt, this is other reason why they have their defense shell in place, to avoid being hurt by others. Cancer lives in the past. They hold past events close to them and often dwell on the past. They have to learn to let go and live in the present instead of spending their time being sick with nostalgia. Cancer has a lot of emotional issues to deal with but once they overcome this large hump of shyness and insecurity, there is practically nothing they can't do. With their strong intuition, sensitivity, powers of observation and intelligence, they will have great success in anything they undertake. Cancer is constantly feeling, feelings and emotions are hallmarks of this sign and this is the root of their problems, human beings are not as evolved in the emotional area and this is where cancer gets the brunt of their problems. They are the ones who have to cope with their strong feelings more so then any other sign. Once properly harnessed, there is nothing that is this powerful astrology sign can not accomplish. Harmony is very important to Cancer, it keeps them happy. Conflict of any kind causes great distress. Deep inside, Cancer is a very powerful sign, they have the ability to stand up for what they think is right and they have lots of perseverance and can be fine on their own provided they don't let their emotions get the better of them and have the stability they need. They are not fond of change but they have the ability to do what needs to be done, they are not pushovers or lazy people.

Cancer in a Nutshell:

Cancer is a mysterious sign, filled with contradictions. They want security and comfort yet seek new adventure. They are very helpful to others yet sometimes can be cranky and indifferent. Cancer has a driving, forceful personality that can be easily hidden beneath a calm, and cool exterior. The crab is Cancer's ruling animal and it suits them well, they can come out of their shell and fight but they can also hide in their shell of skitter away back into the depths of the ocean. They are very unpredictable. With cancer, there is always something more that meets the eye, for they are always partially hidden behind the shell. They are a have a deep psyche and intuitive mind that is hidden from the world. Cancer is deeply sensitive and easily hurt, this might be why they have their defense shell in place, to avoids being hurt by others. They are nurturers so they surround themselves with people, whom after a while can offend or hurt a cancer without even knowing they did so, therefore Cancer's protective shell keeps them safe from hurt. They are complex, fragile, unpredictable and temperamental and need constant support and encouragement, more then any other astrology signs, Cancer needs to be needed. When cancer gets the support it needs, it has a tremendous amount to offer in return. When cancer gets offended, they tend to sulk instead of confronting the persons face to face. This needlessly prolongs the pain and suffering. Cancer is very possessive, not just with material possessions but with people as well. Cancer will always want to stay in touch with old friends and anyone who has ever been close to them, because it is easier to maintain a friendship then attempt to learn to trust a new person. It is easier this way for them emotionally. If you befriend a Cancer, you will stay friends for a long time. Cancer makes the perfect mother, this is the sign that represents motherhood. They have unconditional love and caring more so then any other astrology sign. Cancer are very intuitive. Most of the psychics of the world are Cancer astrology signs. They have an excellent memory and are very observant and can read people very well. They can usually tell of other people's intentions are good or not. Never dupe a Cancer, they can see your motives. Cancer has a lot of emotional issues to deal with but once they overcome this large hump of shyness and insecurity, there is practically nothing they can't do. With their strong intuition, sensitivity, powers of observation and intelligence, they will have great success in anything they undertake.

Cancer Love, Sex and Relationships

What it's like to date a Cancer Woman:

The Cancer woman is a very sensual woman with deep emotions and passion brewing underneath the exterior. To reach these will require time, patience and tenderness. Do not expect to have her open up to you right away and jump into a relationship. She will not make the first move and will not be forward with you, you have to do all the work. Do not try to lead her on because Cancer woman is very in-tune with a persons motivations and she will see right through you. Trust is the single most important thing to Cancer. If you ever betray her trust, you might as well move on. She needs love and security. Cancer is the perfect woman for the man who loves to sweep a woman off her feet with romance. She is sensual, sweet and flirty and you two will engage in a gentle, flirtatious dance together while the relationship builds. Once there is a solid, secure foundation, the richness of the relationship will emerge. She is old fashioned, feminine and sensual and patient, if you are the man who can give her what she wants, a relationship with a Cancer woman is wholesome and rewarding and can last a lifetime.

What it's like to date a Cancer Man:

The Cancer man will not be direct with you. He will approach you cautiously and slowly. He will be very romantic and flirty and attempt to court you and win your heart with lavish gifts and attention. The reason he will never be direct with you is that he has a strong underlying fear of rejection. Of you are interested in a Cancer man, you will probably have to make the first move and ask him on a date. He falls in love easily and will make you his whole world. Once you "belong to him", he will hold on to you and can become quite jealous and possessive. This is because he is worried he will lose you to another man and that would crush his spirit. He needs you to be loyal and faithful for he is the same, in a strong and close relationship, Cancer men are the most loyal of the astrology signs. They make excellent lovers for the tender woman who loves romance and being swept off her feet. Cancer is very affectionate and thrives on holding hands all the time, and constant physical contact as he absorbs the situation and experiences with his feelings. The cancer man is all about feeling. He might not show it however and might portray a calm and cool exterior but underneath, he feels deeply and intensely. Cancer men are easily offended so do not jokingly make fun of them for they will take offense and get hurt, but once again, this will not be known to you. He will simply sulk on his own while he tries to figure out and dissect what you said. Cancer men are excellent male protectors, they are like the knight in shining armor. If you are the kind of woman that likes being looked after and cared for, and loves affection and devotion, this romantic, sensual man is perfect for you.

How To Attract Cancer:

You must be direct, Cancer will not. Let your feelings for them be known, this is the first step to initiating a relationship with a Cancer. This way, will not have to risk rejection, one of their biggest fears. If you are looking for a short fling, be straight with them. Do not lead them on to thinking there is long term commitment is there is none because you will hurt these emotionally delicate people. Trust is the most important. Build trust with them and they will gradually get closer to you. Give them approval and compliments but be careful because they will easily sense when you are complimenting them just for the sake of it. Be sincere. Ask Cancer for advice, share your problems (but don't burden them), they enjoy helping people and giving advice. They like culture and lavish experiences. Take them to a play or museum and a fancy, upscale restaurant. Do not force Cancer into a relationship or make them make a decision on the spot. They will shy away from you. Have patience, this is the key to attracting a Cancer. Be physical with them, they love genuine affection. They are very cautious and as time passes, they will slowly grow closer to you and you will have wonderful, fulfilling relationship.


Friday, August 6, 2010

Before and afte the Love Aftermath.......

  it was a usual thing for many of us to finally crave freedom,from school,from parents and in totality the outside world....In other words the time had come for me to decide among which of my many talent i would enhance..i knew i could sing,rap,play all the sports that were in vogue at that period so the sky was my limit...
   I had just exited an almost perfect relationship, but well it was expected to end soon. like we always want to let our first love be the last,i did too.we had wrote each other several love letters..and made promises that only jack would make rose in titanic..lol..but well people with experience told me it couldnt just work.well fine it didn't..there were a lot more after my last girlfriend,cause like a consuming fire i needed someone to care about..text..have a midnight call with..so my last days of school haunted me..each wrong thing i did made me realize how i had let the recognition get to my head..people feared and respected me..but what i needed was loyalty...i had friends close ones, really close. To them i was more like an inspiration..I would tell them all the rules and ways to get the girls they liked and which classes they took.It was fun too.They thought my life was perfect and that, i had all the girls,i was my team captain..little did they know that this boy always asked God in a quiet prayed for a change of heart,for eternal joy and not condemnation,that this boy  was at the point of  transition.one that would change my life forever..
   i wrote my final exams and kicked my own ass out of school.At least i got A,s and B's.during this time i did a lot of traveling with my dad,Brazil, south Africa..USA back and forth..In doing this i was trying to find out where i belonged...I had always wanted to return to the US but what about my music career and my Abuja  city..and my family and friends..they definitely were not coming with me...i would be alone again..
 Well you must have been wondering about my brothers and my pimpish sister, they all chased their dreams..my sister finished law school and got married,It was a splendid occasion, she had me and all my brothers there to wipe her joyful tears and when it was time to throw the roses guess who was missing? ...me....on the night of the reception we,came together grown men,teasing each other about who was gonna get married next.. and i knew it definitely wasn't me...
  shortly after that i began  outline my startegies to rule my world,i wasnt gonna let love do it and i wasnt gonna let fear either..i had my first demo tape out...i joined a soccer club and joined the band wagon of the few on their way to see the wizard...
 

Thursday, August 5, 2010

The Days to Come

Leaving Ibadan was one of the hardest choices of my life.leaving days when i chased goats up and down those streets,and went to church with my favorite red Micheal  Jackson shoe..lol ...the days i went to my balcony and had imagined i could use the branch to get to the ground like george of the jungle....the days  my dad woulld actually take me and my older brother riding around jericho in my desperado shirt and my brothers kenny rogers shirt...Amazing days that would soon become memories and nothing else..
     At a time i hated dogs cause somehow they always chased me! for no human reason.they just wanted a piece of me! the day b4 i was supposed to travel to Abuja i had washed ma clothes  and was about to dry them when this dog just started looking at me akwardly...well....the next scene was a Little 10 year old boy was chased by a dog called tiger! wat a stupid name for a dog i must have thought......(well i got the dog poisoned before i left anyway)..
     The journey to abuja was soo long and tiring , sepnt 9 hours on the road,my butt hurt so bad! it felt like my back..i had heard so much stories about Acity(thats wat i call it now)..the land of the noble men,was nothing compared to Ibadan..well in a good way...i spent a week making new friends and gettin aclimatized to the visinity.....but nothing excited me more than the thought of me taking provisions to school, it wudnt be so bad after all, il just be nice to my seniors and tell them all about the USA,maybe jist them rocky and alice in wonderland...silly me.
 Boarding school was less than i had imagined..for a freshie it was welcoming...but after my mattrass got stolen,i was soon introduced to the real hardship of Boarding school...it was hard waking up 4.00 on mornings you dont eat and go to class.after class you get beat up and punished and told to fetch water from long distance places...damn i missed my mum at that point so much! i felt like crying so many times but,each sad event that frustrated me only gave me an elbow room to triumph...i failed my first year with no remorse after all i had an excuse...wicked seniors,no mattrass..not enough provisions ...lol..
    So well i pulled through the second and third year,trying to adapt and make a name for my self..first i tot if i had a good reputation,maybe iif i was in the chapel choir,i wud be respected,but it was the other way round...so i became diverse...
My first year of senior class i had earned my self three suspensions which i was soon to discover made me a lot famous...hmm that was working..i became a terror to junior students sad to say...and an adore to girls in their hostel,i was kinda always the topic...that was cool for sometime..till my record was turning red..and i had to think about my family dignity and respect..for my sister and all my brothers had finished form that same school,without suspensions or a bad record,they were all official,but i wasnt,they were all prefects but i was once but de badged for lacking code of conduct.
  I made my mum and dad really sad a lot of times,but after sometime i felt it was my destiny to take that path...several times my dad wondered if i was his blood..cus i was so different..i broke so much bound brought dvds and contraband's to school, had too much things i committed for .....(painful parts of my life)till i had my little accident back home and i was hospitalized for  5 weeks,my face was so cut up,i just thank God my family was there to hold my hand those hurtful nyts.On a short trip to Ibadan i had run through a glass slide door i thought was open!(im still so sure that door was open!)) well when i got back to school i cooled off in my final year before exams plus i had a gurl friend who was a constant source of joy for me....she attended all my soccer and basket ball matches..and watched me perform on stage so many times....it was like something out of a movie! saddest part about my teenage life was loosing her...when i lost  her i lost every thing about love in me..i hated the world so much for the next one year! but well my superhuman sister came to my rescue once again...i got back on my feet soon after then and since then began to search for what goes wrong with lovebirds..
  Our once close attached family was beginning to detach,my sister was in Law school and my brothers were doing university..i was all alone again...(but it was all for the best.....i hoped.......
 gradually  the life i had hoped for was turning into something a lot more than i had anticipated....i just wanted the old days back....sob sob!
 

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Little begginings



Who remembers much about the day they were born...only little who must have amazing brains..lol..il start by saying i really have sweet memories of my childhood life and wish i could reveal em all but il start here.Born in a family of five children and two parents,of course i was the last born! i hate that.i always had a thing for perfection at least so i heard. iv hated clowns.i always feel like kicking their ass cause they make me feel so dumb. of course i had an outstanding ability for fashion(i would dress in all my sisters shoes one after the other and run around naked all over the house,well at least till i get caughtt and spanked)....i also loved my enironment and mother nature wonderful gifts...i sought ways to be a farmer..even though the day my brother told my mum i knelt down for 3 hours..lol..
 but come on,i planted garri and egg(dumb) but as a kid it only showed i was evenly as ambitious as any other four year old. ..i guess the best part of my childhood was the love and fun i was surrounded with..i mean i literally learnt all sort of sports which i play till this day...and funny i was always the best...hahaha.they called me the Gamer! never really forgot the name.I know at four i was fighting every house girl we ever had.those haters..lol ..i was such a naughty last born..We wud sneak downstairs to watch late night moveis and somebody was always on guard for my dad usually my sister..lol ..well sometymes we were succesful and most tymes well,it ended sadly...lol if you know what i mean? yeah well i cooked a lot..cant forget the day i put too much salt in the rice and i had to bury it at the boysquaters..lmao..its still a secret between me and watever mayguard saw me!
   Yeah yeah i had crushes...from omowale to bimpe to my teacher Mrs chicke to the girl next door..hahaha...but i never really knew the art of toasting damn i sucked...and i wud dream each nght i somehow married one of them..hahaha...nad on our wedding day wud be so cool its happen on a ship....well all that was vision as my brothers wud say..lol just vision.....
  And there was Christmas days when we wud buy fireworks and sneak up to ma sisters bathroom door and throw them under..lol then she wud report us and get our asses whooped so bad it didnt matter,we wud still laugh..and we wud play Stevie wonder and don Williams all tru the nyt to the next morning.it was a sin to sleep on Christmas eve..or new years eve too.who ever did get called tomato boy or girl lol..we were so silly!....
  It wont be a suprise to know i use to sleep walk on a regular occasion..lol even go to my dads room and tell em good morning at odd tymes in the nyt,
Days passed by and well growth happened slowly the days i once remembered started to fade...lol we were all shipped to boarding skool and i well.i was left all alone..God i would cry when they leave form school and wash all their clothes they day b4 they return....it was some great days great neighbours great frends....and my worst day ever too...they day that left a scar on my left cheek...but well it was all gud...My days in Ibadan soon came to an end when my admission letter came in...Adeola Olabanji Tokunbo....admitted to FEDERAL GOVERNMENT COLLEGE KWALI ABUJA..
    well i remember begging....cause i heard so much stories bout belts,whips and cold nights on the hard floor..well all that i was about to find out...
  well not before my sister told me how she neer wanted no girl breaking her baby brothers heart in secondary school,she gave me all the weapons needed to pursue a relationship which well worked till this day.lol..i read lots of books bout love..which is still one cause of my silly overreacted  emotions.......well what happened again hmmmm oh yeah i grew up......